October 16th has always been a day I remember. Two days before my birthday. 2014 made it different.
Here is our story......
We've been married for over 3 years and have loved every single moment TOGETHER. I can not get enough of my husband. We knew we've always wanted to have kids when the time was right. Over the years we've gotten asked SO many times, "when are you having kids?", "you know your up next for kids", or my favorite from a coworker of mine that basically said I needed to start having kids because (at that time) I was turning 28. I sat back and thought WOW I really am getting to "THAT" age where its time to start popping out kids or should've already been. Little did anyone know what was going on behind the smile that we wore when people asked us.
If you don't know me, my life revolves around a plan. I had this plan. I wanted my child's birthday in March. So what do I do next? I stopped my anxiety medication in mid February when I left a VERY STRESSFUL job. Next up, my lifeline to clear skin..... my pills. I stopped taking my birth control in June and I would get pregnant RIGHT AWAY and have a baby due in MARCH. Why March? It was the beginning of Spring, which I love, and no one else had a birthday. The weeks rolled by and nothing was happening. I began to get sad about it. I had so many thoughts wondering through my head, "what if were not able to get pregnant?" "we should've started sooner", "OMG, my age may be making a different." My husband would console me and tell me that it will happen we just have to give it time. Months rolled by. My stress would continue to fluctuate but would be able to control that on my own. No matter how hard I tried, I tried not to think about the family that we wanted so badly. There was a point in early September this wasn't the time and sure enough it wasn't. I came to a point where I was okay with not having my child born in March. Life throws us curve balls and somethings don't go as planned. This made me live a little more adventurous. This was happening for a reason. I texted my husband, "everything happens for a reason and we weren't dealt this if we were not able to handle it." After many discussions with people and co workers, we finally decided it was time to call my Dr. to schedule a time to come in just to make sure everything is working right.
Wednesday, October 15th 2014.
Made the call I have been dreading to my Dr. "We are having a little problem with getting pregnant, it's just not working out for us." The nurse scheduled me to come into the office on Monday, October 20th at 1:10PM. Alright, now I have to figure out how I am going to get off work without letting my office know. At this point, not many people but our close family and a few friends know we are trying to get pregnant. Email sent to my boss and afternoon off was approved. GREAT. Never looked towards a Monday so bad before.
Thursday, October 16th 2014
My sister, brother-in-law, and my nephews came over so I could color my sister's hair. We had a huge discussion about why I shouldn't be running the half marathon on that coming Sunday (10/19/14) due to a knee injury I sustained late August. I was determined to do it. My sister's family left, sat with my husband watching the Cardinals game. Out of nowhere, I told my husband that I was going to take a test because this coming weekend would involve a lot of booze for my birthday.
9:47 PM: longest 3 minutes of my life......
Okay, there's one line and there is a second line that is lighter. No, no. I was so use to the single line coming up in previous tests. I pulled out the directions and read under the pregnant description, " second line may appear lighter." Holy shit I am PREGNANT. I call my husband to come to the bathroom and check this out. No Way. "OMG, I need to call my mom." After us sitting there in awe I told my husband I needed another test and I would take tomorrow morning. He left for the store and I went to shower. Still in shock that there were 2 lines. My husband came back and insisted on me taking the test that night and told him I would take it the next morning.
Friday, October 17th 5am....
Test says, "YES +." Un freaking believable. I woke up my husband. I couldn't believe it. I sat at my desk all morning before work just in complete shock. I called my Dr. on the way to work and sure enough "Congratulations, your about 4 weeks." Soooo that's why my stomach was hurting and that's why I've been so exhausted. Holy smokes I AM PREGNANT. I took my lunch break and searched EXPECTING for 30 minutes straight and everything I found, I relayed to my husband. We were in zombie mode. We could not believe it.
Did I mention that we had planned a whole birthday weekend for me filled with dinners & a trip to the winery?
My nerves were going crazy, we had to somehow not let anyone know that we were expecting. Throughout the afternoon, we tried to go through every single thing we could think of and ultimately, we told my family at dinner and went to my in laws and told them as well. Both families could not be more excited for us.
Nerves calmed.
Needless to say, we made it through the weekend and lips were sealed. It still hasn't hit us yet. We go on November 17th for our first dr appointment and our first ultrasound. I think once we seen our little bean on the screen, it will all become real.
We are so excited to share our journey with you. These next 9 months can not go soon enough.
XOXO,
SJB
Independent Beachbody Coach.
Week 5
Monday, October 27th.
It's still so surreal for us. We are counting down the days until we go to the dr. to see our little one. I am loving this time right now when NO ONE knows but our families & my husband's boss. Such a beautiful and private time that I will cherish.
How am I feeling?
I am feeling pretty good. Earlier last week I was exhausted so we watched more t.v. then normal after work and caught up on some much needed sleep. I have had a bit of cramping but according to what I have read on apps that I have downloaded, seems normal. I have been in contact with my Dr. earlier last week regarding basic nutrition questions. Guess who gets to keep drinking her SHAKEOLOGY?!?!?! One healthy baby on the way.
ONE HAPPY MOMMA TO BE!
XOXO,
SJB
Week 6-9 & first doctor appointment
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
Well, the full effects of feeling fatigued, "morning sickness", and indigestion has fully set in. I just
started feeling normal again on Monday. Instead of "morning sickness" it should be called "longest hangover ever feeling". I would be fine in the morning and throughout the day, but the second I showered and went to bed it was almost instant. Slept sitting up for a couple days due to the horrible indigestions which then would make me feel more sick then I already was.
I knew that you would be exhausted and sleep a lot in the first trimester, but holy smokes, I didn't think going to bed at 8PM and sleeping 10 hours would be that. It was the same routine every night for about 3 weeks: come home, eat dinner, shower, bed. My poor husband was left to hang out a lot but he has been the biggest trooper with getting things I need or rubbing my back to make me feel better.
Back to working out on a regular basis after I took last week off to sleep. The cravings have been so strange. All I have been wanting is cereal. I haven't had cereal in a year! Today was Lion's Choice & tacos. I have been doing well throughout the day with my snacks and breakfast. Shakeology here and there.
I am learning when to limit my body and when I am full. This is a whole new experience that my husband and I are going through together and learning so much. I am learning about my body, more then I would ever of thought.
Here we are with 9 full weeks under our belt and we are more excited then ever.
First doctor's appointment:
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| First family picture |
Ahhh we made it through it. It was on Monday, November 17th. The day we have been waiting for, for a month and to finally feel that this dream is REAL. We were nervous, but super excited. We had no idea what to expect. We got the ultrasound done first. There is a BABY there. my heart just flutters saying that. The heart beat is strong at 170. Everything is looking good according to the ultrasound tech and when my doctor looked over the results as well.
Blood work was also done. Got those results back today and everything is look GOOD!
Bump pictures will be coming soon as well. Starting those this week.
I don't ever want to wake up from the dream we are finally living. Such a beautiful thing.
For now friends.
XOXO,
SJB
